You see the world around me has decided to become positively insane. So why bother trying to remain the only living breath of reason? I have decided to let my inner insanity take reign for now. =)You see, Anne is having a ball of a time with penguins, walruses and ice cream, Adam seems wrapped up in his own little world thinking he's a jellyfish, tim tim has decided he's kin to tigger so why not I join this happy bunch of campers?Black Donkeys. Don't you think the world needs more black donkeys Anne? I say it's positively disastrous how Black Donkeys have suddenly been eradicated from the face of this very earth. I'd like to see these Animal Rights people do something about this. I mean with all this cloning SURELY there can be something done! Don't you think?Did you know that this famously rare breed of Donkey has only been spotted about 10 times in the 2 years? Yes, I kid you not. This is due to it's ingenious form of camouflage. I mean REALLY, do you think anyone would be able to see them on a regular basis???Oh wells. Got to go.Toodloo!
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
9:18 AM
Happiness is subjective really...
Well, come to think of it, everything is subjective really. Hmm... OOOOOoooo LOOK! A Penguin!! Oh wait... no! It's a WALRUS! Oh good lordy... I think Anne just imported something illegal here... is importing animals against the law? ARGH!!! Help!! They're attacking me!!!
Oh. Heheheh....
Sorry, They're just licking me. It seems I've suddenly landed myself with a 10, 000 gallon tub of ice cream. Anne's orders yet again. I hope she doesn't expect me to pay for the bloody fedex. I mean there's only so much I can take!
I love Anne, really, I do [altho love is subjective isn't it?] but seriously, I don't have a freezer big enough for the ice cream, the walruses AND the penguins. HELP!! Anyone willing to donate ur freezer??
Heheheh... hmms. Relatively good day today... didn't get scolding. Although I scolded someone. DAMN.
Oh wells... toodles!
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
12:00 PM
Core grp leaders if you are free... go read ur email.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
11:27 AM
I've fallen in love!We went to MINDS yesterday and I have totally fallen in love with the people there. Intellectually they might be slower, but whatever gave people the impression that they were stupid or crazy? No, they aren't. In fact, they are just like little children who are just craving for attention.The first activity of the day was the 'outdoor walk'. We were all paired up and I was told to accompany this guy who looked about 20-30 plus. He was nice. I enjoyed holding his hand and walking along the path with him. He was really quiet and only made small noises here and there, but he was really quite sweet. He seemed to understand what I was saying at least. And holding his hand just gave me such a warm and fuzzy feeling. =)It reminded me of the time I was a little girl and used to hold my dad's hand while walking in the park... sigh... I was elated that I had gone to MINDS yesterday. I don't think it's an experience I'll ever forget. In fact, one of the most memorable things was when this guy in front of me just suddenly turned around and gave me a hug. =) I was of course surprised at first, but I was touched. So full of innocence, completely lacking in insecurities. It really pulled a heart-string. And to see his happy face, his smile after giving me that hug... I really can't think of a more meaningful CIP.In all my 4 yrs of mopping, sweeping, painting, selling... this has been by far the most meaningful and time worthy programme. And sincerely, if I had been more emotional yesterday I could have cried for joy. Smiling for them was never difficult. In fact it was just so easy to let go of all my inhibitions with them. I didn't have to be Teri the school bitch, Teri the loyal friend, or even Teri, the filial daughter. I could just be Teri and have a laugh while at it. Well, I'm definitely not going to say that the initial scare of having them scream and shout wasn't there. I mean can you imagine seeing adults aged 20 - 60 acting like 5 yr olds? And some of them were violent too, but then, when you see them smile while having fun listening to you sing and dance, you can't help but let go of all your fears. When has that ever happened for you? Has it ever?I'm writing something for the school magazine on this, and I promise to put in my best effort. The people at MINDS truly deserve it. Hopefully the school will take a hint and organise more of such programmes. =)I'm in love with them!!! Hahaha... Sheesh, I don't think I'll ever be able to forget the way that guy hugged me! hahaha... so like a little innocent boy. =)Ladida.. happy thots!
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10:37 AM
Jealousy to me, is a green eyed furry monster who recently went for an extreme makeover and turned out looking like a rather attractive skinny black haired girl with normal looking features.
ERGH.... I hate it when makeovers actually work... well at least for other people.
It's not like I enjoy being jealous, it's not like I WANT to be jealous and it's not even like I can CONTROL myself from being jealous. It just sort of manifests itself and before I know it, POOF, there it is, staring back at me with those big green eyes.
Sigh.
It's not even like I have a RIGHT to be jealous, which is why half the time I'm beating myself up over thinking about such inane, stupid, ridiculous thoughts. I don't know why I like to torture myself over such stupid things. Why can't I just forget anything ever happened? Things would be so much easier.
Well, I shall try to get myself lost in some other more useful activity. Or maybe I should take up some advice and try looking at other guys. ARGH ... I hate my options. I should try praying harder. Maybe God will give me some useful advise, well either that or at least get rid of whatever I'm thinking and feeling.
Haiz... well on to more interesting things, the get together last night was FUN!!!! Hahahah... poor tim tim... hahahah kena have to do so many things with so many ppl... hahahahahahah. Sheesh... I'm so damn lucky I never kena until like that!! Hahahahaha... ARGH!!!!
Sorry jes... I didn't mean to. I didn't know it was that person!!!! ARGH!!! Sorry! And Anne, don't worry I don't hold anything said against you. I mean it kind of is a game where secrets get out...
I'm having a terrible headache now... wondering when these stupid pills will start working... my dad says an hour or so. He should know... he takes them almost everyday doesnt he. Hmphs.
Have to get to church by 8pm. There's a meeting going on. Something to do with the way of the cross. Sheesh. Hope this headache goes... it's becoming annoying. You know it's one of those headaches that goes boom boom boom in your head. It's like the consistant pounding of a hammer. ERGH....
I need to have dinner soon. Haiz.. then I'm rushing off to church. Penitential this thursday. Must remember to go.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
11:10 AM
There are many types of lies in this world.
There is the small white lie, and then, there is the big black lie.
Obviously, most of you have hear about the small white lie, right? Well, then, what exactly IS this 'big black lie' ? Well first, to find out what this means, let us look at the 'small white lie' first. Let's break it down slowly shall we?
- 'Small'. Now obviously small here means small. Something minute in size, something almost insignificant.
- 'White'. White generally refers to the innocence and purity of something or someone.
- 'Lie'. Now this just means an untruth, something that did not happen, or something not told in exactly the way it occured.
So when you put it all together, 'small white lie' basically means, an untruth that was told that's really quite, insignificant and innocent and not meant to harm anyone at all. =)
Now that we've got THAT out of the way, what exactly is a 'big black lie'? Let's break it down shall we?
- 'Big'. Something that is obvious, huge. Something that cannot go unnoticed.
- 'Black'. This word here is most languages, usually hint at something evil, something related to bad mishaps and misfortune. eg. black cats, witches...
- 'Lie'. Same thing. An untruth.
AHA! So let's see what we've got! 'Big Black Lie' just means, an untruth told to someone with the intention of creating a huge and obvious evil harm towards him/her.
HEHEEHEH! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE... it's sooo fun creating my own dictionary. One day, I'll have my very own dictionary called, "TiT's Treats" ! Wah...so fun!!!! Hahaha... but I guess this means I have to go learn proper English first huh. BLEH. Imagine me, sitting there repeating to myself "the rain in spain falls mainly on the plain"... ERGH.
Well, sacrifices must be made my dearies and if I want to make my own dictionary and get it accepted world wide, I have to get myself into a state of 'enlightenment' which I'm sure the Universities claim to have. BLEH. *sigh* Where's the TiT University of Fine Arts and Languages when you need one. Haiz....
Ladida. Kena have to teach on Sunday again. I'm planning on running out of the room naked with my hair set on fire if Jude starts interrupting me with questions I can't answer. Yes. I'll run off to cambridge and be an illegal immigrant in my brother's college. =) what a splendid idea! It will be an ABSOLUTELY rambunctious affair! =)
Ladida. girls and boys, please do not try whatever I might do on Sunday at home. Only trained professionals are allowed to do it. Well, that and psychotic freaks of nature like me!!
Toodles!
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
9:24 AM
Intimidating.
They think I'm intimidating.
Are they serious??? ME? Am I really like that? Huh...never really thought I was intimidating... harsh maybe...but intimidating? Huh. Well, even if I am, I make no apologies. I did what I believed was right and still believe is right. Do you not learn skills in my dept? Do you not learn more general info than you do in a year? Do you not learn public speaking? Do you not learn confidence? Do you not learn detailed planning and organisation?
Huh.
You may see me as demanding and intimidating, but I'm only doing it to prepare you. Do you think the teachers are going to be any nicer than me? Do you think teachers are going to tolerate late proposals? Do you think they accept proposals which make absolutely no sense at all? If you think they do. Please dunk your head in a bowl of water and open your eyes.
I'm only one tenth of what these teachers are capable of. Really. If you hate me, that's fine. If you detest me for making you work so hard, fine. If you think that I'm the worst head of department you'll ever have that's fine too. Just ask yourself when everything's over and done with whether your time in I&E has been benefitial.
My expectations might be high to you, but I'm only prompting you to move on to higher order thinking. I'm only pushing you to become mature and sensible planners, sensitive to things that are happening outside your own little closed box. I'm just making sure that when you take over the council and when we step down, you won't be total complete fools that screw up everything. To be honest, that's what happened to me.
I don't think I'm particularly capable right now, but let me tell you, when I stepped up last year, it was worse. I was a complete ass who didn't know head from tail. I learnt everything the hard way.
We're giving you the opportunity to be more than anyone in the entire school will ever be and to experience things no one else will be able to experience. So why the long face? Take it in your stride. Why bother to be in the council when you don't even want to work for it? Doesn't this say something about you as a person? As a councilor? If in your interview you told me that you wanted to join the council to learn new skills and to be a leader, I ask you now to take a good look at yourself. What exactly are you trying to tell me now? For those who can without a guilty conscience tell me that they're working hard. I say all the best and I know you will DEFINITELY go far in life, for all the skills you've learnt will make sure you get there.
For those who can't. Well, it isn't too late to change. I KNOW you can be SO much more.
I've watched you guys since you were sec 2. Do you really think I'm blind to what you guys say and do? Do you guys really think I don't know what you say to your friends? Do you really think I don't know what's going on in your minds? Huh. How naive.
At the end of the day, when the curtains go up, the whole world will see. They'll see the cracks in your mask and they'll finally see you for who you really are. They'll know. You won't be able to fool them anymore. You won't be able to hide behind us sec 4s. It'll be just you.
You alone in the spotlight.
Intimidating huh? How's this for intimidating?
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
9:42 AM
If you guys are REALLY bored, or if you're just REALLY interested in what I am like as a person, go read my other blog. It's in my links. The one that says hidden secrets. =) It's pretty cute stuff!
MUAKSS**
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10:40 AM
