A semi-naked girl with curly blonde locks jumped from cloud to cloud. Armed with her trusty love potions and her pink, heart-covered bow and arrow, she floated through the air.

Her master had sent her on a mission. A mission to bring loving matrimony to all the lonely souls of the L.O.G. Clan. She had a LONG list of names and finding suitable partners would be difficult. Especially since half of the male species seemed very much inclined towards the 'other side'.

Suddenly she had an evil plan. She decided that for the first time in 20 seconds she would concoct love triangles in the group. [or in some cases love polygons].

Cupid: Hmmm.... here's the list of names of the people in my charge.


9:52 AM




You know I have a sneaking suspicion you people out there aren't really humans. Seriously. I mean look at it this way. You LIKE my parents. [i do too, but i mean aren't they the least bit weird??]

Somehow, after blogging about my parents conversation with me, my blog has suddenly become REALLY popular. As in random people I hardly know are turning up to read my blog. Look at Janice's brother for example. Do I know him?! NO! Hahaha.. oh wells. I do hope you had fun reading the last post. As do I hope you'll enjoy future ones. =)

Hmms... Something totally weird happened again this week. And it isn't about sex talk with my parents. Ok, it IS sex talk ...only this time it's ABOUT my parents. [EEEEEWWWWW ...not THAT way. URGH!! ]

NO!!! I meant, my parents' love life.

My Dad is SUCH a TOTAL bleah when it comes to romancing my mom. Sure, he was a romantic little sod when he was wooing her, but what happens after 26 yrs of togetherness? COMPLACENCY!!!! [you should be ashamed!!!!] tsk tsk.

Haiz. Seriously. I think poor mom is feeling slightly neglected. I mean when it comes to the point of my mom mentioning this at dinner, don't you think he'll at LEAST get the hint??

Mom: Your father spends more time fiddling with the violin than he spends with me.

Dad: That's because you've got nothing new to fiddle with.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

What in the FUCKING HELL was he THINKING!!!! Does he have literally NO brains??? Hey, just coz mom's not crying about that comment, doesn't mean you can get away with it. I'm sure you were just joking, but still. To say such a thing? So insensitive!! Which is one quality I ABSOLUTELY detest in my dad. he is the MOST insensitive dad I've ever had. [Not that I've ever had any other dad's, but hey, I admit I sometimes wish I did when I get soo frustrated with him. but really, he's a good man]

Which is PRECISELY why, I cannot let these two parents of mine screw up their love lives on account of there being 'nothing new to fiddle with'. I REFUSE to believe that there isn't an ounce of romance left in those old bones of his. If I have to pick at every single bone in his body to find that darned miracle I will.

BLEAH.

This Valentines day is coming up soon. And I say 'Operation Romancing Mom' is in order. No more lunches or dinners dragging Teri or the other family members along.[ which happens frequently on every special occasion coz they always say they prefer our company]

I am staying PUT in my house and I am NOT coming out with you two. And to HELL with your bloody work! Your puny staff won't die without you there for one day! [even tho at times I wonder...] You two had better be making plans to do something nice this Valentines and if not - well. I'd hate to think of what I'll say to you two. Really. I will nag. And nag. Trust me. I'm almost pro.

So 'Operation Romancing Mom' obviously means I've got to do some meddling. I suppose I need to push Dad a little. Make him do something romantic. Like write poetry or sing songs for her [like he used to do when he was courting her]. I suppose I'll be needing Paul's help as well. I mean what good would it be to let Paul's keen sense of restaurant excellence go to waste. His skill is much needed in this area.

Hmmm... I'm formulating all kinds of thoughts right now. Many along the line of them having a fun day together. Hmmm... anyone got any suggestions?

But you know, seriously, as teenagers, we should always be watchful of our parents. And every time they seem a little complacent we should give them a little nudge in the right direction. Coz that's what we're here for aren't we. We should help put the omph back in their romantic lives. Seriously. So if anyone of you out there is noticing the same lack of romance in your parents lives, I invite you to share your story here with us! And perhaps even better would be the solution you came up with to solve the problem!

=)

Don't take what you have for granted people. If you love someone tell them today, who knows, they might not be there tomorrow. And complacency is not in the least bit attractive by the way. -BLEAH-

Hmms... that aside I'm pretty much ok. Been having too many tests this week, too many sleepless nights, too many cramming sessions, too many useless meetings, too many atrocious auditions with talentless girls thinking they can act, too many acting rehearsals which aren't really going anywhere and just too many disturbing smses from some guy called Andy. But still on a whole, I've survived the week. Phew!

I'm heaving a sigh of relief now, but the fact is I know that once I open my eyes again, Monday will be here. More tests, more late nights, more cramming sessions, more drama rehearsals, more auditions, more meetings - and probably more smses from that creep. [why?]

But I'll try to do it. I mean others are. So why can't I? Am I more burdened then others? Well, maybe a little more, but still, all that means is that I have to stay up later, wake up earlier and keep my useless activities to a minimum. [which is why this week I've hardly been online or blogging] It just means that I cannot watch tv, cannot have a social life, cannot communicate with friends unless during school hours, cannot take part in useless competitions.

Right. I can do this.

WHO AM I KIDDING?! I'm going to DIE!!!! =(

Well, no, not really. I'm just whining again. I'll live. I'll be okay. Nothing to worry about. Just taking deep breaths. WHoooo.....

I'm boring you aren't I? This blog is now getting depressing isn't it? Oh wells. This probably means I should stop bloggin now before I go into my sob story abt my life and perverted men. =)

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Sayonara!!!

~Good friends are hard to find, great friends are hard to let go, but your best friends will always be there no matter what~ Teri.




9:37 AM




I don't know why I woke up today feeling soooo tired. It's weird really. And I guess that's pretty much why I'm not my usual 'high' self. My eyes just feels so dry and tired right now.

Today's not a particularly good day for me... I didn't end up getting married. I'm sadly disappointed. And we ALL know WHY! *point finger at boy boy*

Ah well, can't blame him exactly he looks even more tired than me today. Wish u all the best for next friday!! Hahahah... even tho I do favour girls in general!

And yes Adam, I might resort to lesbianism if I dun get a husband soon. Not that you'll feel particularly devastated since you've made a note to yourself not to get married to me, but hey. You should be concerned! =)

Well seriously, I am feeling a little off today. A bit depressed I guess. No BIG reason why though. Just tiny tiny ones that make me feel a bit down. I suppose it must be the hormones thingy. Females go through this all the time. I don't know about the men, but I'm assuming they don't get it coz they aren't built the same way. Whatever it is, I should be better tomorrow. Hahaha...well then again, maybe not. I'm dreading going back to school tomorrow.. Hahaha..not that I don't miss school, but I dread the homework stuff. Hahahha... yikes. I'm just bracing myself now.

Low morale right now. If I could I'd bitch about things, but somehow, I can't exactly do that now. I suppose the ranting part of me has somehow subsided. I only do have one thing to despair about today and that's Anne's disability at holding the knife and fork properly. Tim, evonne, jeslynn, me and even brandon were trying to get her to hold her cutlery properly. It still doesnt work. The grooming course our school paid for doesn't work.

Anne should get a refund.

I haven't been to the course yet though. Going in march I think. don't exactly know what to expect. Hmmz...parading around in heels? Sitting with my legs crossed? Eating with the proper ettiquette? [sp?] Probably all that.

Haiz.

Just tired. but somehow talking to this computer is really theraputic. It's most probably why I often type such long entries. Coz I need to. It helps me.

Anyways, off to read some book. Byes!

~God only asks of you what you can, not what you can't.~
8:17 AM




It's been a weird week... I've not been to school this entire week and I have somehow managed to avoid being called up by my teachers concerning council stuff. Although there was the one call from tze wei...but then again, that doesn't really count.

I'ts also been weird since my parents are totally such perverted jokers [see why i'm like that? It's in the genes!!!]

Okay, I guess I kinda asked for it when I told my parents I wanted to get married after I turn 16, but I mean if they were normal parents, all they'd do is choke on their veggies and or have a heart attack.

But Noooooo, my dad had to say-

Dad: If u want to get married can u pls marry someone rich? Then ask him for money so I can buy a $20 000 violin.

Teri: WHAT?! No! I'm not going to marry someone for his money!

Mom: Why marry a rich man! Rich men are very stingy one. They won't give you their money so easily. Unless the wife is very business minded she won't get any money out of him. but anyway, just ask for dowry la. Tell them that for all the times I've stayed up cooking soup for my daughter...for all the times ....

My GOD! DOWRY?! My mother is insane!! [Not that insanity doesn't run in the family, but still]
Teri: MOM!

Dad: Eh but let me tell you something. Don't have sex on your wedding night.

Why in the hell would he say something like that?! So, the only thing I could say other than scream is-

Teri: Why?

And trust me, I totally did NOT see the next line coming.

Dad: Coz you'll be too tired to enjoy it.

Teri:ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Yes, I screamed. I screamed and screamed and screamed. And then my mother asked me to keep quiet since our neighbour obviously might think something is wrong and call the cops.

THINK something is wrong?! SOMETHING IS WRONG! ARGH! I can't believe my dad told me that. Really I can't. Oh no, but it doesn't just end there.

Dad: Seriously.

Teri: SHUT UP!

Mom: See? If you can't talk abt these things, you aren't ready to be married.

WHAT?! I can't get married because I don't want to talk about my sex life with my parents?!!

Teri: No! that's not true.

Dad: but really lah Teri, trust me. Don't have sex on your wedding night.

Mom: Yah, what your dad means is that you should have sex BEFORE your wedding night.

If you thought my mother was tame. This should shock you into reality. Then guess what I did next.

Teri: ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Mom: Shhhhhhhhh. Don't wake people up!

OMG! It's at times like these when I wonder whether I'd actually prefer less liberated parents. Really. But then, I'll always come back to the same conclusion. No. I wouldn't want less liberated parents or jokers, whichever u might like to call them, because then where'd be the fun in that? And like there are SO many things I can tell my parents since they're so... Whacked out.

Really.

Like my brother and all. I mean my mom is totally fine with it. And that's just so cool. And like I bet if I wanted to get married now or if I wanted to stop school after my o's she wouldn't scream at me either. Oh no, it's not to say she doesn't care, she does. She nags like hell itself and has even slapped us around quite a bit when we were younger, but somehow, she just knows when to stop enforcing her own laws. She has this intrinsic belief that when a child grows up and reaches a certain age, they should be allowed to make their own decisions in life. And for them, when the time comes, all they do is back us on our choices and push us enough so we actually get there.

It's a beautiful thing really. And I whole heartedly agree with her on this. As a teen, there's nothing more supportive than this.

Well, enough about perverted parents. On to another hot topic for me! Quiet people!

I've been studying people for a while now and I've made some observations. Quiet people are:

1] Vindictive
2] Good sex partners
3] In MOST cases highly intellectual/creative

Like take my brother for example. He used to be very quiet as a young boy and you can totally see the intensity in which he hates someone who has wronged him. It's almost scary. I tell you my friends, you DO NOT want to be near him when he explodes. It's nasty.

And just because he's grown to be more outspoken and vivacious, doesn't mean he hasn't lost that revengeful side to him. Oh no. He's got that thing down to a T. I wouldn't want to cross him. Well, not REALLY. Although I do irritate him a lot....

On to the 2nd point. Now I OBVIOUSLY CAN'T use my brother as an example coz how the hell would I know?! And asking HIS sex partner if my brother is good in bed is TOTALLY out of order [not to mention a bit incestrous] [but then again I'm not to sure if my brother does have sex so, doesn't count]

But like in general, I've heard people say that quiet people are good in bed. And I mean that's got to have at least SOME truth to it. Even if it's a mere 1%...

Which is so funny coz then like would that mean I'm not as good in bed as I was when I was younger since I was totally quiet before puberty? Hahahahahahha... that's really something to think about actually.... =)

Hahaha.. well that point aside, we come to number 3. Hahaha... well, I don't exactly know if this is true, but hey, it kinda seems nice if I put it here doesn't it? =)

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....

I'm scared of sarala.... well not REALLY, just a tiny wee bit. She's got info on me which she's using against others!!! hahahah... well.... it's kind of okay since my brother deserves it some times... =)

I just hope Lala knows when to stop pushing people that's all.

Oh yes and before I forget. I actually DO have a reason for saying that RI guys are oblivious. Ok, I admit, not ALL of them are, [some of them are sluts] but I have seen my brother being TOTALLY oblivious to his fan club. REALLY! When he was in secondary school, he NEVER even knew that he had a following of girls. Really. He didn't. And he didn't know it until recently when Sarala told him. I'm surprised, really I am. I mean how can you NOT notice a horde of love sick females? That's kind of hard to ignore/be oblivious to.

Haiz...I duno. I'm just waiting for people to prove me wrong is all. After all, my opinions aren't cast in stone. Well, at least not yet. =)

I'm happy to be getting better. [for anyone who wishes to know] but I'm still feeling twinges of discomfort sometimes. I'm still trying to avoid fried stuff/chilies so if any of you ask me to lunch and I say no, really, dun be offended or think I'm blowing you off. I just simply can't eat. Drink maybe. But eat no. So you know I'm totally game for joinging you'll to provide entertainment, but dun force me to eat. That's all I'm asking. =)

WHEEEEEEEEEEE...sunday is coming...sunday is coming..... HAHAHAHAH sunday is going to be different from other sundays. Can't tell you why, coz then he'll know, but sunday is coming.... =)

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Tim tim got talk from his parents about girls ah. Wah. Not bad. Pretty happening ah your parents. And why so roundabout? coz you never help them out mah! hahahah... be like me =)

I think being traumatised in a good way is fun.

ARGH I've got recording again at 6.... so tired.... hahahha mom says that maybe I'm ready to go pro at it! Hahahah ....exciting! Well, we'll see how things go... I'm actually quite tired of recording really. But well, I've got commitment.

Got to go! Sunday is coming! YAY!

~Whether or not it's true, when you think you're wrong, you're right.~
9:17 AM




Today is wednesday. The current day count is 3 and a half. My stomach still feels like an earthquake which registered 9 on the ricter scale.

Yesterday I thought I would be able to get back to school. But last night my stomach had a serious debate with me. It apparently doesn't believe in being forced back to the hundrum of school life. My brain on the other hand wanted to get back to it for a number of good reasons. One being that there would be a mountain of homework that needed getting back to, and two coz Anne has a really interesting photograph of 2 little boys! I mean REALLY! I WANT to get back to school.

But NOOOO my stomach just wouldn't allow it. So mom ended up saying, ''Teri you'd better not go to school tomorrow.'' ERghh... well fine. I ended up NOT going to school today. But AHA! That means I get to see the doctor! AND get MEDICINE! HA! Take that you scheming little organ!

*Sigh* Went to the doctor to see what the hell was wrong with me. [and to see if it was the same cute doctor I saw the last time -which turns out it wasn't] And he determind that it was a case of gastric. I COULD have told you that! But anyways, let's not get violent here. The more important thing was that he was giving me MEDICINE! HAHAHAHAHAH... which I now have PLENTY of. Mostly to relieve the pain. But just before I thought it was all over, the doctor said, "Ok, I'll give you MC for today and tomorrow."

Oooooo that little rascal. How in the world did it manage to get the doctor to give me another day of MC? Haiz..... Oh wells. I'm pretty determind to go to school tomorrow. With or Without MC.

I think the Medicine helps, but let me just say that through the medicine taking, I've discovered one thing. And that is that when a person is clumsy, he'll be clumsy for life. Nope, seriously. I had popped the first pill and was getting ready to pop the second when it just fell out of the casing and onto the carpet floor! I mean hello? Doesn't this seem like a classic case of clumsiness? Well, tried looking for the bugger, but even supersonic vision didn't seem to help me. It was gone. So ended up LOSING a precious part of my medication due to my clumsiness.

Wells. Will be having lessons with Sarala later. And oh yah... must remember to help mom cut her hair. I just keep forgetting.

So I guess that just leaves me with the office work. BLEAH. there's this huge pile of recording just waiting for me next door. I'm currently at the office. Puppy insists that I need to do recording. Mommy of course has finally decided that her daughter's safety is less important than her work. =) Just kidding. She's a sweetie pie. Must REALLY remember to cut her hair tonight. Haiz... I guess I'm just trying to evade the inevitable. Haiz... just trying to push it back for a few more minutes.... ARGH! My puppy's here! Whew. He's just collecting something. Oh no...he's giving me the look. Haiz... guess I really do need to get going now. No more procrastinating!! HAhahahha... Off to work I go!
9:11 AM




I'm feeling AWFUL!

In case you peops in school have been wondering where I've been, dun worry. I'm not dead. Merely on the verge of it. =)

For the last 2 and a half days, my stomach has been churning non stop. When I say non stop, I mean 24/7. It has come to the point where I can't even sleep without feeling the discomfort. BLEAH! I think it must be some stupid stomach bug or something... well whatever it is, I'm going to the docs later. Have to get MC coz I haven't been to school for 2 days already. I wonder what my problem is tho. I mean it can't possibly be because I ate something wrong is it?

Oh wells... have been on a plain porridge diet for these 2 days... it's strange sometimes, I can't remember eating coz immediately after I stumble onto my couch and fall asleep again. This has been the only time where I'm wide awake and not curling up into a ball trying to coax my stomach into silence. Hahaha...

I'm so going to die when I get back to school. So much homework to do... I'm sooo screwed. Really. I'm so screwed it's not even funny.

I duno how the current affairs peops are doing and I'm sure there will be hell to pay when I get back to school. My teachers will kill me for not getting them rehearsed right. Haiz... I'm sorry! But seriously, Tze wei is in charge now! I've made her the IC. She has got to learn how to do these things! Oh wells... can't expect too much out of her... I mean she doesn't really know how to do it does she?

It's also my responsibility to teach her. So haiz... ok. When I get back to school I'll have a chat with you... Sniff. My puppy wants me to get back to work... the office needs my recording apparently. Luckily mommy has come to my rescue! Hahaha... it's quite funny actually. Puppy is like pleading with me to go office to record and mommy is like scolding him for disturbing his sick daughter. =) Not that I get any pleasure out of seeing them quarrel [esp over me], but I mean, it's kinda funny.

I hope I haven't traumatised Justin K. too much with my romeo/juliet stunt. Hahaha... it WOULD have been HISTERICAL if his mom were at home really. Luckily for me she wasn't. HAHAHAHHA....

Oh wells.. shan't try that again. it might get me into serious trouble with the parentals. =)

Haiz....back to sleep. My stomach has decided not to let me have any peace. Not even even to enjoy bloggin on a day when I don't have to go to school. BLEAH*

Adios!

Ps. Did you know that in Indonesia they pronounce their alphabets differently? Like A is Ah, B is Beh, C is Cheh or something like that...hahah so cute! =)

~life is a box of chocolates coz it can't be a piece of cake~

3:49 AM




Feeling really messed up now. No idea what's going on. I duno what to do. We'll just leave it like that. I understand. Coz that's how I feel too. Just weirdness personified. Thinking of blue skies and grey clouds. Doesn't match but it sure as hell makes as much sense as how I'm feeling. Want to concentrate on my studies. But I keep thinking of other things I really shouldn't. It's confusing. I thought it'd be easier after saying it but it just makes me think more. Don't take any of this to heart, I'm just ranting about my confusion. And if this post doesn't make any sense to you, that's ok, coz it really doesn't make any sense to me either. Just ignore this post. I'm really not in my right mind. Thinking of thunderstorms and bluebirds. This must be caused by sleep deprivation. Really, that must be it. I'm going back to sleep now. My stomach is doing weird flip flops. I know I'll be thinking of stuff I shouldn't before I fall asleep. It's been like that for a while. But wells. Such is the life of teri.
12:14 PM




OH MY GOOD LORDY! ADAM BOY BOY SO CUTE!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAH....

Sing like a little boy like that!! Hahahha... wheeeeee..

Had loads of fun at tim tim's house yesterday. Joan almost kissed me [she even said she wanted to] and she even talked abt my tits! ARGH! Hahahha... if i were a lesbian Joan, trust me. You'd be the only one in my mind. =) Plus! I was able to find new nicknames for the other little boys in the group! Hahaha... I call Joel Jo Jo [like mojo jojo], brandon I call farmer, Justin s I call him Miss Sim, and the rest I have no idea yet.... hmmm.... I shall think of it soon.

HAHAHH! WATCH OUT JOJO! You and Jerome are the only two boys left in the entire youth group who haven't been hugged by me!!! HAHAHAHAHH... Well...not to scare you or anything...
=)

I say! We must REALLY get a strapless bra for Joan Joan. I say we get her a hot pink strapless push up bra! YAY! Mirabel says we should get one of those that's cooling... hahahha! I OSO SAY! HAHAHAH ...since we're getting one of those, might as well go all out and get the one that massages!!! HAHAHAHAH... WHEEEEEEEEEEEE ... Tim Tim might want one too...hmm...maybe for his b'day lor.... Hehehehehe

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....

You know what? I think I must have an affinity with splinters! Every single camp I go to I'm sure to get a splinter! Hahaha... soo jialat. My splinter is still in my finger... hahah... Gerry didn't have a needle in her first aid box...so I ended up leaving splinter in my finger....erhhhhh...HAHAHAH

Oh wells... WHEEEEEE..

~ You can never twice step into the same river~
10:06 AM




ARGH HAHAHAHA!!!! I'm still ALIVE!!!!

Altho I seriously might not have been if i weren't so lucky. Hahahah... I was soaking the woods with kerosense in the back of the canteen near this grass patch [no i did not soak the woods ON the grass] and this uncle walked by and said. Whats that? And I told him it was kerosene. And then he said that ppl actually smoke in my school.

It took me a minute to realise what he was implying. Then I panicked.

Hahahahah.... I sat there praying for the next 4 hours that a cigerette wouldn't suddenly fly from the sky and land on my kerosene soaked woods. HAHAHa.... coz then I would have been DEAD!! Hahaha.... not ONLY that, but also I was HIGHLY FLAMMABLE coz of the kerosene splatters on my clothes and hands. HAhaahahah....

Oh wells. I'm still alive. You see? Prayers DO work!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.....

Last night was REALLY happening! We had 2 loiterers outside our school! Then the policemen came to check it out! WHEEEEEEEEE... sentry was SO happening last night. We got baseball bats and wooden sticks to humtum any intruders.. HAHAHAH SO FUN!!!

But in the end got no intruders. Haiz.

Had to do two nights of sentry duty. The first one was with 1A, the second one was with my class 1G. ERHHH.... Walked around the school so many times. It was like from 1st floor go basement, then go 1st floor again, then 2nd, then 3rd, then 4th... then back down again. WAH...it was SUCH a long process. Haiyo... then got to do the whole cycle at least 4-5 times.... I just realised how many corners our school actually has. Not to mention the number of good hiding places too. HAHAHAHHA.... oops, shouldn't have said that out loud right? HEHEHEHEH

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.....

I'm so lucky i managed to get free time today to sleep. Session 4 was an empty slot for me so i slacked off and snoozed for like 3 -4 hrs... Hmmm... ended up waking up when the other instructors came to remove their bags..HEHEHe....

WHEEEEEEEE... my track pants ripped today. BLEAH... I must have sat down on the wire mesh and torn it then.... haiz.... I wasn't really pai seh i guess... hahah even tho ppl like can see my underwear! HAHAHA :D WEll, just use shirt and cover lah! HAHAHAH... Nex time must remember to wear underwear the same colour as track pants....

Coz of that sleep I actually managed to make it to mass today! YAY! WHEEEEEEEEE... Today was the tsunami mass thingy. For which little boy still has my $150.... [where is it by the way?]
The prayers were gd and I liked the songs....hahah even tho I can't sing them! :P Saw Johnathon playing the violin for mass. He's quite gd i must say! Hahah...well at least compared to others la... hahahah

Tml there's praise and worship so I must remember to wake up tml.
2:04 PM




I'm in an offish mood today. Happy, sad, tired,angry... hahaha too mixed up lah.

Scolded the instructors today. Told them that the things they did not only showed how irresponsible they really are, but also how thoughtless they were. They don't really know how much trouble they've caused me because of their late proposals and overdue props. Haiz... Calmed down after giving them a good blasting and decided to apologise for shouting at them... then told them that I was just very angry...

Ended up concluding that if their classes' item sucked it wasn't going to be my fault, because I had already warned them. Oh wells... I think my teachers might want to skin me alive.

To anyone who is reading my blog. There's a youth grp meeting at Tim's house this Sat for praise and worship. Erm... I think it's at arnd 4.30pm and Marcus will be there. Oh and there's a mass this Fri esp for tsunami victims. It starts at 9pm i think. Yups... Wish me all the best at camp! Hahahah... probably will get sunburnt tho... haiz....

~Dreaming of my reality~




9:55 AM




Tired.

Want to sleep.

Erghhh... I am SO freekin' pissed right now. Irresponsible ppl who just push the blame to others. Well the hell with u. I'm not rescuing ur freekin ass this time. Go and drown in the mess u created.

Haiz... this doesnt sound like me....

I'm just tired lah. dun mind me. Ranting today. It's been an awful day. Must be the Monday blues or something. Haiz.

Wells. My behaviour obviously isnt in the spirit of Christ. I should do something tho. And not just sit here in front of this square box and write rubbish...

Talking abt rubbish, I have resolved not to blog abt poor boy. He's suffered enough. I shall spare ur soul for now. Neither am I moving on to another target. I'm throwing in the towel. It's over.

I have officially retired as your court jester. I shall no longer run an entertainment website. And I'm sorry if I've hurt anyone's feelings. If it's any consolation, I annoy the people who I love. So if I stop teasing you one day, you know why... =)

sleepy sleepy... *YAWN

Haiz... I feel slightly better now I guess. Hmmz. This blog IS rather theraputic isn't it.... =)

Not in the mood to say whee today. Haiz....

~ The weak cannot forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong. ~


9:18 AM




At a glance, it seems like a normal handshake.

And yet, there's so much more, if we only bothered to look deeper.

He looked at him with knowing eyes and a lingering flame. A passion burning inside him that could never be extinguished nor satisfied. In a place like this, it wasn't allowed. Their love for each other had to be denied. Yet, it never fizzled out. In fact, their secret meetings and chaste kisses stolen in the dark fuels his passion for his lover even more. In a strange way, it's even more exciting and exhilarating.

~~~

WHEEEEEEE!!! HAhahaha... I dedicate this short episode to little boys arnd the world. Esp 2 VERY special boys in my grp.....hahahah! no prizes for guessing which ones tho! ;) Hahahaha... Hmmm...u know which little boy u are!

WEllS, news update on lovely shy Justin. He's so sweet really. I don't think i could hurt him really coz that would be cruel, but he's JUST SO ADORABLE! But, I still think it was exceptionally coincidental that Abi and him were colour coordinated in their clothes today...dun u think so? Hahahah WHEEEEEEE!

On to other news, I say there's more chemistry in the air with some ppl! Hint Hint. I wonder who! *points finger at jerome and a pretty lady called -* Hahahah...did u think i'd actually name her? Oh wells. Too bad. Tough luck. It's not going to be so easy this time! I never torture any girl... well not as much as i would a guy anyway.

WHEEEEEEEEE...

On to more important matters tho, I would like to discuss this exco thingy going on in my youth grp. Do u notice that Adam and Tim are together? And don't they ALWAYS seem to be communicating with each other? Hahahah..... Hahahah... well. They were wearing matching grey outfits today.... :D Hahahahaha.... they're colour coordinated too! WHEEEEEEEEE... I think Adam's given up on wearing button shirts...he doesn't want me to unbutton anymore! Hahaha... Poor fella. Oh wells. tim will be there to comfort u in your time of need... hahahah. shan't state what those needs are tho!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....

Oh dear. I'm being mean to Adam again. but dun't we all like it? Well.. not all. But this IS reality in a blog. Haiz... wells people, I've done my part in terms of contributing the the level of entertainment today. Although not as interesting as last weeks version, I promise if u stick true, one day I'll get the girls over for a session. It shld be fun.

REally.


WHEEEEEEEEEEE...all the best to everyone out there! Hugs and kisses to my lovely school pals! Esp my youth grp buddies! MUAKS!

Ps. doesn't Jude seem like he's trying to advertise Adam with his saying...'oh Adam is a very good man..any girl would be lucky to have him'? HAHAHAH... I OSO SAY! Foreign brides man, right on....

~ Special thoughts of you - yet i can't ~

8:29 AM




I took triple science last year. Hated it.

It was THE most horrible combination for me EVER! I regreted taking it and am extremely relieved that this year I've convinced my teachers that I would be better off without Chemistry and Physics.

And talking about this, what is WRONG with you ppl? Why do you continuously bug me about my current combination? It's not something particularly hard to understand. And just because I've dropped subjects doesn't REALLY mean I'm dropping class either. BLEAH. Ppl just don't understand.

But anyway, for the record, I've dropped my pure physics, pure chem and have taken Art. So my current combo stands at an average of 7 subjects which include:

English
Chinese
EMaths
AMaths
Biology[pure]
SS/Lit
Art

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.... I'm really estatic. I've just gotten my timetable and it's GREAT! Hahaha... I have 5 FREE periods on Wednesday coz of my dropping subjects! Hahaha.... so wonderfully cool...

Well, actually then again, it's not REALLY free, I mean I've still got to work on my Art and research which is due at the end of Feb. Oh wells ... = )

Hahaha... I'm planning on doing life size papercuts on two boards, while the third [in the centre] will have a COLOURFUL painting! Hahaha...well, it seems like a GREAT idea, I just REALLY hope I can pull it off. I'm currently working real hard in doing all the research work, coz apparently, both the research work and final piece are given equal marks. WHoooboy. It's gonna be tough getting my much wanted distinction. Hahaha... praying to God right now that I'll be able to. Hahahah... Okays, I've gotta go do some work right now. Hahaha.. waiting for some instructors to call me, they owe me their proposals. Haiz... I'm in charge of campfire again. This time, it had better be GOOD. Hmph! Hahaha...

Well, irresponsible people are REALLY keeping me waiting. It's irritating. IT IS! I've gotten all the other proposals from the other instructors but these 2 ppl are still making me wait. PAST THE DEADLINE TOO! It's not as if I gave them the news yesterday. I told them the deadline in like the 2nd week of DEC!

Haiz... I'm tired. Will have to wake up early again tomorrow to scout the whole of town and Chjimes. Haiz...Oh wells, the sacrifice for success.

Got to get back to drawing now. Need to go. I really hope it'll be a good day tomorrow.

~Take me from my misery Lord, you are my salvation~
9:11 AM




I am slightly annoyed today.

It is the 2nd day of school and I reach seragoon at 7pm. 7 o'clock at night! Haiz. I can't believe it. I can just imagine what time I'll be reaching home the next few days... Bt it isn't the fact that I arrive home late that bothers me, it's the fact that I arrive home late AND miss mass. ERGH... I really wanted to go mass today, so I had to end up settling for going to the adoration room. But then again, it's not really 'settling' because I always feel more in the adoration room anyway.

It settles my nerves and makes me reflect on my life. I try to concentrate on all the stuff I want to tell God and talk to him in a quiet manner I've never used for anyone else but him. He's special in that way. He knows what's going on in my heart even when I can't find the words to express it. I've felt comforted by this fact many a time, and I've believed in the miraculous feeling of lightness after coming out of there. I should resolve to go more often. That is if my parents allow me of course.

Not that my parents are restrictive or anything, in fact the direct opposite. They're really liberal with us children. I mean look at it this way, would you be able to stand by and watch one of your sons go out with a girl who at the time had just passed the legal age and let them sleep over in his room? And not to mention having the other son potentially going out with another man, AND to put the cherry on the cream, how would you like to see your only daughter date a man 10 yrs older than her and then stand to watch her almost not get confirmed and THEN see her turn into a sexist bitch.

I mean what an EMOTIONAL ride my parents have been through! I do NOT know how they live with us! But I'm glad that they know that they can trust us. And it's that trust that binds us to them. It's more than love, it's more than thanks, it's the feeling of being trusted. I've often seen parents being sooo over suspicious that the children end up lying to their parents just to have a little bit of fun. I'm thankful to God that he's given me such wonderful parents. I've loved them for not letting me make mistakes, but I've loved them even more for letting me actually MAKE them and then realise it for myself. It makes me a different person. A stronger one I'd like to think.

If my mom had forced me into going Catechism, I think I wouldn't be so involved in the youth grp. I don't think that I would have found myself and truely believed in the love I had for god. I thank her for letting me fall, and I thank God for catching me at the other end. I believe that I've grown in my faith purely because of this experience. The fact that it was MY choice to be a Catholic was indeed a huge thing to me. And when I say that I don't mean it to sound like a total spoilt brat who just wants her way, no. It's just the fact that I made the choice to love god and that it was a free choice, one that was not hindered nor forced. I don't think many of you will understand this, but it's more enlightening then anything really.

For this I love them. I thank them and am forever grateful to them.

Thank you Lord.

But, back to the daily hundrum of life, I'll be off at sec one camp next week. It'll be from 14-16. Haiz.. I'll probably get no sleep and a terrible sunburn to match, but well, I asked for it. And anyway, it's not to say that camps aren't fun, it's just the preperation for it makes it sometimes all the more tedious and less ... well, fun! I'll probably not be able to turn up on Sunday next week either. I'll be the sleeping dead. Haiz... I'll see how it goes. But let me tell you past experiences with coffeebean coffee and too little sleep do not help much.

I love u everyone!

~ loving someone completely is trusting someone completely~


1:09 AM





Here's a little picture of Paul and Sarala. I admit it isn't a picture of them looking at their best, but I actually DO have a point in posting it. It's to display Sarala's wonderful hairstyle which she wonderfully ruined by wetting it! HAHahaha... oh wells. We had it straightened that day and it was amazing because once in her life, her curls were almost non-existant! Hahaha... Wells...she has new aspirations for her hair. Particularly daring ones, but I shan't say more. She might kill me.
12:23 AM





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WHEEEEEEEE....

Ergh! I'm VERY tired. This just goes to show that one should NEVER stay up for more than 24 hours. Let's see. On Sat, I woke up at arnd 11am then stayed awake till 12am Monday morning. So that's... 25 hrs! Hahaha... ERghh... Totally having a stupid migraine now.

Oh yah... Sarala's at my house right now, she's talking very loudly [like she usually does] and I've shown her the new trick that I've taught my dog. Hahaha... Oh wells. I'd seriously be in BIG trouble if someone asks me to strip naked and do the Cha Cha, coz I probably would. This is how OUT OF IT I am. ERGH....

Man, I'm never doing this again. Oh and remind me NEVER to invite a friend over in the wee hours of the morning to blog abt some random fella. Coz I'm REALLY kinda regretting it now. HAHAHA... Haiz. Jes thinks I have chemistry with someone involved with original sin, Tim soo is sayin stuff I dun feel like repeating, Joan says I shld work with the fella, abi is laughing hysterically abt my post, Denise thinks this is EXTREMEMLY entertaining and I'm still recovering from the fact that Brandon 1] thinks I'm the most likely to be a lesbian, 2] tells me he loves me and then hits me on the head, 3] makes weird laughing noises that REALLY reminds me of the exorcist.

My life is a freak show.

When joining the youth grp I never knew I was signing myself up for THIS type of committment. I thought praying and going for meetings and other holy stuff were it. But now I've got a wagon load of people jumping arnd, saying random rubbish, making ME say random rubbish abt random ppl! HaIZ..... i'm having a migraine.

But being serious for a second I dun think I'll be able to entertain ppl with my blog anymore. Well, at least not as often as I'd like. Even though I'd love to my committments are just too much. Being a good Catholic means being a responsible one as well. Haiz. Wells, so be it. OUT YOU DEVIL! I shall stay focused on my studies this yr.

Well, I've got to go now. Tired, got school tml.

Ps. Paul, I know your secret. And I think mom wouldn't be too worried abt it. LOVE YA!

~I look at the sky and wonder, does he even know I exist~
6:51 PM




HAHAHAHAHAHA....

I feel disgusting right now...im REALLY REALLY REALLY very very dirty.... sorry ppl reading this. I know I'm dirty mentally .... but im physically dirty... WHEEEEEE...the time is now 4.22 am Sunday. I'm desperately in need of an energy boost. Haiz... played pool, bridge, jenga and did an 'enlightening' quiz on my gifts. [turns out im a leader and an administrator] :D WHEEEEE.....

Joan says that I'm supposed to work with Adam coz I've got the same score as him! HAHAHAHA.... But Jeslynn says that I have ''chemistry'' with Adam... hmm... I wonder what she means... maybe we shld ask Jeslynn ...okay Jeslynn what do you mean by I have chemistry with Adam?

Jeslynn : *cough cough ACHOOOO*

Teri: Riiiight..... I think she has got a dirty mind too :D WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE Huh...think of such weird things...

Jes : that's not weird ok...

Teri: u mean having a relationship with Adam is not weird? HA!

Jes : Lalalalalala ....I never say anything...... it doesnt involve me WHEEEEEEEEEE

Teri: Oi... you using my WHEEEEEEEEE

Jes: It was mine ok when did u start using it?

Teri: Recently! But before I knew u! AHAHAHAHAAHHA... which means...we started at the same time! WHEEEEEEEEEEEE

Jes: YAYA *throwing confetti*

Okay back to the blog... I dun want to hear what else her dirty mind has concocted. WHEEEEEEEEE.... HAHAHAHA... Okay, I'm siao... it's just that I have been playing weird mind games with people today. Like ordering foreign brides for the bacherlors in our grp!

Brandon: 15yrs 10 mnths, England, France, Japan and Austalia, All those women or girls out there who have lots of money and alcohol please contact me or adam [we are supposedly the administrators] and leave ur name, age, contact number, country, bank account number as well as your bra size. I think Brandon would like to know. Thanks so much. WHEHHEHEHEHEHEHe.....

Adam: 15 yrs 7 mnths, is looking for an old woman who has a million dollars and is NOT brazillian [because very slutty] and preferably if she's taller than him as well as more talkative that would be great. Urm...if you have one million doallrs and is not a old woman please DO contact Adam hahahaha....and tell him your name, age, bank account number as well as your height. Thanks very much . Please do call again. Call Adam. WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....

Teri: Hahaha I feel so bad [actually no] about sabo-ing those poor guys who were sooo helpful in helping me make an advertisment for them. For finding their mail order brides. So, in return I shall post my advertisement for the prince charming who I have been waiting for since last Thursday. [from 7pm -7am] Apparently that particular prince charming sleeps during those hours. So I shall try again next Sat at a different time. Haiz. But those free guys who are single, cute looking, taller than me [166 and above] and who are not pure chinese... coz my chinese sucks. Who is not snobbish, can tolerate my idiocy and crap, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE find me! Email me! Call Me! Or just find Adam. [coz apparently we have chemistry] [either that or Adam has turned gay. So he could always have a choice! WHEEE :D]

Jes: is this supposed to make sense?

Teri: No WHEEEEEEE....hahahahah

Sorry Adam but apparently you are the subject of today's rant. HAHHA... WHEEE ..ur just somehow very fun to pick on. HA! So much for RI guys being soooo CLEVER. HA!

Anyway, I asked Anne to pick one of the guys from our youth group. She said that she would pick any guy whom I picked. So, HAHAHAHAH, I picked ADAM! WHEEEEEEEEEEE... to which she said. I would NEVER go anywhere near him. And I would NEVER do anything with him. [except she forgot that she recently hugged him! ADAM what were you thinking?! You should have given her a ring instead of a hug!!! WHEEEE] Anyway, she continued to pick on him. By saying he looked like a Banana!! [coz of his yellow shirt] To which he tried to defend himself by saying ' ppl always comment on my clothes. The last time I wore black and white, you said I was going to a funeral. So what can I wear' HAHAHAHAHAHA I tell you little boy, you cannot wear anything... [NO it's not the chemistry] but any colour you wear will bring up criticisms... Jes says you shld just wear a dress!

I oso say! Must wear dress! Musn't disgrace the Taurus ppl. HAHAHAHA... I'm oso wearing dress wad. What's ur problem? Wear dress with me la! :P

Jes: I actually can't imagine him in a dress! What colour would it be? Pink and flowery!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeee

HAHAHAH I OSO SAY! OHHH Great minds think alike! HAHAHAHAH... Poor Adam.. I just realised we were really slamming him.. Haiz. Maybe I should stop.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ....like real! Teasing you is just too fun. I tell you la little boy, we like teasing you soooo much because somehow it's very funny. I oso duno why, but u just are very funny...hahahahahaha. So, too bad. Continue to tease you. WHEEEEEEEEEEE

Jes: What else is there?

Teri: I duno? Maybe we should start talking about his porcupine [sp]? HAHAHA

Jes: Scan his Sparky [name of porcupine] into the blog.

Teri: I oso say! WHEEEEEEEEE... ADAM little boy, please supply us with a drawing oso can give us your signature can? Please la... you almost famous liao. Coz of this blog, Many women old and young have noticed you. I think you will be hearing from them soon. All the best man. I wanted to do audition for you. But u say u dun want. So haiya I leave all these old aunties to u la. Good luck.

HAHAHAHAHAHA

Jes: HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Teri: I OSO SAY! WHEEEEEEEEEEEE

HAHAHA oops... I also just realised something. I am going to be seeing Adam today at 11am. Erm... I dun think he'll see this in time. Damn. Should I print this out for him? HAHAHAH I shld! WHEEEEEEEEEEEE... Oh dear. I just forgot. If we are supposedly to have 'chemistry' then why am I doing this? HMMMZ... ok. I tot enough already. It's because I LOVE LITTLE BOYS!!!!!HAHAHAHAHAHA and I want ALL little boys to get married!!! HAHAHAHA... and I want them to get mail order brides. To help improve trade between countries! Plus culture growth. HAHAH so thoughtful right?

Jes: HMMM....

Aiyah.... little boy... why so sad? or angry? or fed up? or maybe just plain happy? I tell you, this will be VERY fun!!! WHEEEEEEe... I think hahah, you'll have fun checking out the older women who are not brazillian. AHAHA...maybe you can get a hmmm indonesian bride. hmm.. would that make ur child be full indonesian.

Jes: No wad, not really.

Teri. No meh? Half and half not one? Errr...my maths not so koyak la...errr...hahahahah.. then again i failed A-maths so...hahahahah. Ya I added wrongly.

Haiz...Adam...

Jes: little boy

Haiz...got nothing much to say abt u liaos.. haiz. nothing funny anyway. Haiz...shall find out more today if I can get some time to push all your buttons. Hmmmm

Jes: Huh?

Teri: NOT the clothes buttons. If I did that, Adam wld be arrested for statutory rape! HWEEEEEEEEEEE

Jes: you walk up there and unbutton unbutton unbutton....hahahahahaha

Teri: HAHAHAHA REALLY? Is that allowed in church? HAHAHAHA..... HEY! FREE SHIRT!

Jes: HHAHAHAHA....

Teri: Aiyah what I mean is that i should tease him until I know what makes him tick la. HAIYOYO...

See poor little boy. I'm so, so so very sorry that we've put u through such very embarresing situations. We're just

Jes: Not very stable....

Teri: I OSO SAY!!!! WHEEEEEEEEEE

Yah....u can tell we are a little tired. Thus the LOGICAL stuff we're saying. And we are NOT drunk! I have NEVER been drunk while typing on my blog. Because of the things I might say! Which wld be worse than what I'm saying now! HAHAHAHAHA... like what type of underwear im wearing today!! HAHAHA... but I'm not drunk! So, I shall spare you ppl the details. Oh damn it. I just realised something. Hahaha... I actually have people from school looking at my blog. Some of them are my juniors. Who are councillors to be. Oh shit. Oh no..... HAHAHA... too late now. I think I have corrupted them. And little boys and girls. if u are still reading this. Please go and sleep. It is now 5.12 am. and even if u aren't reading this now, u shld still go away, coz I am unbuttoning someone's shirt....

Jes runs away....

Teri: HAHAHAHA... now it's u and me ADAM HAHAHAHAHAHA.... DIE!!!! Oopps. I dun mean that really. I meant stop winning at games. OH! Talking abt games. He sucks at pool! He's the foul King! He in one game can foul 5 out of 6 times! HAHAHAHA... Jes and I beat them flat man, we totally kicked their butts. HA! I told you men cant multi-task.

HAHAHAHA

Ok, we've got time constraint right now. Ppl need to 1) sleep, 2) Read my blog, 3) I have no clue, but it still counts.

Jes*came back*: coz 3 is a nice number. YAY!


WHEEEEE... ok lah, end here. Haiz. Actually feeling very bad now. Haiz. I think i'll let everyone in youth grp read first then delete from blog. HAHAHA... I think la, see how much response ADAM gets from the old ladies first. Brandon too. HAHAHA. Even though you're sleeping, I've done u in. WHEEEEEEEEEEEE...

Teri: Jes, say your last words.

Jes: Speechless

Teri: Fine, I shall end off. I OSO SAY! HAHAHAHAHAHA... that actually makes no sense. But I'm proud to say that this production is jointly done by Jeslynn and Teri who are in the youth grp. And Adam who is our leading man, is from Raffles Institution. HAHAHAHA. Go find him in school. YAY!

That's all for now folks, see you today. at 11 am. If I manage to get up that is. Haiz. BYE BYE!

Ps. This is the list of guys who actually LOVE me: Brandon. Justin K. says [70% like], Tim soo[never ans], Adam [what will u do if I say yes? so i took his ans as no]

Haiz.... so sad lor. No one loves me. Only the guy who gets drunk on coke and hits his head on the trampoline loves me! Somemore he hits the ppl he loves! So jia lat! HAIZ...... PRINCE CHARMING!! WHERE ARE YOU!!!! I LOVE YOU!!! BOOHOOOHOOO.... snif*... I dun want to have chemistry with Adam, i want prince charming

Jes: Riiightt.... you know what I mean?

Teri: HUH? I DUN GET IT!?

JEs: Maybe Adam gets it

Teri: No, Adam doesnt get it. Spit it out

Jes: How you know?

Teri: Coz I am supposedly having chemistry with him.... hahaha it's like im having a class with him like that.

Jes: I duno what to say.

Teri: Haiz....are u trying to imply that Adam is supposedly my prince charming? HUH?! ^&$*#(@$*

JES: WHEEEEEEEEE

Teri: Adam, I apologise to you. I have no idea where she cooks up these stories.

Jes: in the kitchen....

........

Teri: Anyway, I am dreading Adam reading this. Sorry la boy, I don't mean it, but i think Jes does. I think she thinks u and I are supposed to have chemistry. HMM... Lets go to the lab tml. We can have CHEMISTRY!

WHEEEEEEEEE

Okay. That's all so far. Now the time is 6.02am. Man...we've been bloggin for 2 hrs. Ok. I think I shld REALY end now. Bye bye....

9:22 PM




You're absolutely flippin' MAD! [is what Sarala would say!] and I no doubt fully realise it.

I am CRAZY. That was for the ppl out there who still havent caught on to what this entire rant will be about. Being a self professed ego maniac [go see tagboard] I have decided to be self-centred today and completely whine about my pathetic future and my lovely job and parents. [when is a diary NEVER self-centred?]

I LOVE my job. Hahaha....though I most undoubtedly whine a lot abt it and complain abt it and threaten my parents that I'll stop working, [i know i know...emotional blackmail will probably get me life imprisonment in jail :P] but I seriously do love it. And I thank God I've been given this amazing opportunity.

Hahaha.....ahh...u don't know what I do do you? HAHAHAA. Well, it's a nice, easy-looking [i say easy looking coz it aint easy at all] job that really, mosty of the time has very flexible hours. And what is it I do?

I do recording! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

What is recording? I basically stand in front of a mic and read off whatever script they've prepared and they record my voice and input it into their CD ROMS. HAhaha... cool right! :P

I've had this job ever since I was 6 [which was when the company started] and I've never looked back since. It has been a LOT of hard work, I've shed tears one too many times and i'm almost embarressed to say that others have even witnessed my shaming from my mother. She often scolded me into tears back then. HAha...no dun go feeling pity for me. It actually gave me the much needed pressure in order to do well. I was reading English at that time and in a matter of one to two years I turned pro! :D Well, by most people's standards at least!

Hahaha... Now I can breeze through English texts without stumbling along too much. I think it's a gift really, coz I have to be able to 'turn on' that cherrful persona when I record. Even when I feel so darn pissed off with my parents. :P Hahaha... since I easily mastered the tongue for English, they've now moved me on to the other Mother tongues. Chinese and Malay. Yes, chinese AND malay.

Hahaha...for those who know me well, you will know that my chinese sucks. Hahahaha... and for those who know me even better, you know I try to mix in some Malay words now and then. Now you know why. I'm practising. For chinese though, it's REALLY hard. Coz of the way the words roll off the tongue. It's VERY different compared to English and Malay. I've had to endure coaching from my mother's staff. He sits there and listens as I read and he corrects me. Often when he does, I cannot hear the difference. It's only when he's repeated himself ten times do I actually hear a tinge of what actually should be. And my parents are darn hard for languages. They want it pronounced perfectly. So what should be a half hour long session turns out to be one and a half hours long.

Malay is infinitely much easier to me I feel, however, there's a stange way that these native lilt their words. It's not so much the pronounciation of the word, but rather the intonation of it. The way you make each syllabal sound. The way you have to put stresses on certain weird syllabals. And though I almost cried in that recording room due to this aggrivating sentence ' kilck pada jawapan yang betul' I managed it at last. It's hard inflecting emotion into a sentence when I have no idea what the sentence means as well as when the words have sounds of their own. IT's hard.

Hahaha... But I love it. Some day I hope to master the speech of both languages. It took me 3-4 years to FULLY complete my basic training in English, and now I'm taking on another 2 languages. My mother is confident however that I will somehow manage to do so even with the concoming onslaught of my o's. It is usually at times like these that I think this Insanity is hereditary. I am most likely right.

I, along with my brothers have been predestined to die of awful mental or physical deaths or possibly both. Both sides of my family have had numerous health problems which I shall list right now.

Cancer[uncle recently had to go back in for checks coz they suspected it was growing again], heart attack[m. grandfather], high blood pressure and acute stress problems[myself], stroke & later on alzhiemers[m. grandmother], gout and migraine[father], diabetes[p. grandfather], schizophrenia[p. grandmother although even as they call it this, she never did seem like a 'mad' person], exzema [all 3 of us siblings], asthma [mother but she's over it] and god knows what else. Imagine. These are the ones from only 12 people. Out of these 12 people only 2 are seemingly unaffected.

I'm freaking myself out here and I no doubt should actually stop obsessing about the fact that I am in no way escaping a horrible death. Haiz. But I've come to terms with it I guess, well, no, no really, but it would be great if I could wouldn't it? Hahaha. Oh wells. having a headache right now...trying to ignore it but it simply won't go away. Ahhh bugger.

Anyways, I have to go off darling. I might die tomorrow and wasting time explaining in length abt how I am going to die isn't a very good use of my time left. I shall bid u adieu and say goodnight!

Adieu!

~Crazy, Delusional, But Blissfully Happy [even more so]~
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Name: Teri Tan
Birthday: 19th May 1989
Occupation: Student (NAFA/NIE)
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3) To graduate well enough to get a scholarship for an overseas degree and maybe take a second major like literature or philosophy

4) Earn enough money so I'm not reliant on my brothers in the future





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