I've heard countless stories from friends about how their JC or Poly orientation was really fun and exciting, so I guess in a way I was expecting mine to be... I don't know, really fun?

Okaay, not that it WASN'T fun at ALL, but it had its moments of 'tediousness'. There was pretty much a lot of laughing among us classmates, but that was because we created our own fun. There wasn't any activity that was REALLY fun you know? Like the type of 'you can sink your teeth into the game and really get gungho about it' kind of fun.

Well, apart from playing some "classic" games like wacko, human entanglement and 7up, we were able to somewhat tour the school grounds and a get a feel for the place. Although I'm still VERY confused as to where the different rooms are... (it's such a headache learning the layout of a place right?)

We also had a VERY long talk conducted by the different heads as well as the president of NAFA. And if you thought that NAFA was a slack and EASY school, HOHUM! I surprise you now by telling you that if you don't have 90% attendance, you'll be barred from EXAMS! And not only THAT but if you're late for a class, you will be considered as ABSENT! *SHOCK* Ya... the rules about punctuality and discipline is really strict in NAFA. Surprisingly. I mean I thought it was you know, pretty slack about this kind of stuff too. At least you know I thought it would be like Sec school kind of slack, but my GOD, the place is like military strict!

And even mistakes like smoking in front of the school (not that I smoke, but other little things like graffiti) will warrant a written warning, of which we are only allowed 3 in our 3 years of study at NAFA. After which, there will be suspension or expulsion! NO WONDER I didn't see any smokers in the school. ERGH. Even forgetting your electronic card will warrant a written warning. BLEAH.

But I guess the plus side is their library and facilities are pretty ok. I mean they have VCDs AND MOVIES in the library so you can go there to watch them.... hahah I'm gonna be stuck in the library a lot.. I can tell. Even music CDs are there.

Well of course with any other orientation, there will always be some kind of performance from each class. And you know what we did? HAHAHAH. We did a rendition of Do a deer that song...hahahahahah. We ended up saying that we were 'teachers' and that we'd start by teaching this simple song to children. HAHAHAHAAH. It was okay. In the end ours was one of the more entertaining ones I think. hahah. Short and sweet.

Oh wells. I guess it was ok. Not very happening, but ok. Was very tired by the end of the day though...and in fact, I'm still feeling very tired. My working at suntec for my parents is really exhausting. The hours are cruel. I'm there from 10.30am to 10pm daily and by the time I get home it's already 11+. I've got this killer ulcer in my mouth and I kid you not when I say that it is the size of a 1 cent coin. So I've been chugging water at an alarming rate everyday hoping to somehow alleviate the pain, at the expense of running to the toilet every now and then. But whatever right??

Haiz... ok. Will go off now. If not I will never stop complaining. Haahah. BYE! 9:25 AM




In a few days I'll be stuck at Suntec City working... not that I mind, but hmm is that how I really want to spend my last few days of ''freedom'' before school starts?? Hmms... but then again don't REALLY mind. It' a yearly event that ever since I was young I was involved in. It's kind of like a tradition for me to turn up every year I suppose. Last year was an extremely busy year , so I wasn't able to turn up... but I guess this year I'm determined to make it. It might after all be the last Book Fair we'll be attending. The organiser might stop doing the bokfair at Suntec....

Got quite pissed at someone today... I dunoo, it's not anything in particular this person said... it was more like his attitude I couldn't stand. You know how sometimes you just meet someone and the moment he opens his mouth to say something you already can't stand him? Yeah, that's how I felt about this guy today. But I'll just give him the benefit of the doubt I suppose and not hold it against him. Although my intuition is USUALLY right... Lol=)

Well, thinking about school starting soon, I'm in cass 1A. And apparently I'll only get my schedule during orientation on the 29th. Sucks though. I'd rather have my schedule now. But I suppose it's like this coz they wanna force us to go for the orientation. I mean, if we had the schedule most of us would most likely just pontang the orientation(I have a feeling it might be REALLY lame) but this way, we have no choice but to go.

In the end I wonder if my batch is going to be separated into different classes. We're already considered a small batch though. There's only about 15 of us... I kind of hope we can stick together. It would make things a whole lot easier. Plus you know, I can only keep and eye out on the competition! Heheheh... But seriously, some of us have already formed a bond in anticipation that we'd be together.. but if we're serparated, it'd be like a weird and total waste. BLEH! Well, *keeping my fingers crossed*!

I almost forgot that I'd be going to Yishun JC on Thursday... hmmm, apparently they're having some sort of concert thingy or display... hahah *scratches head* I don't know much about these things though. Even when I was in Sec school, I never had to participate in things like that. Not even CCA showcases. HAHAHHA! Was lucky I guess. I didn't have to dress up and act!! LOL! I remember it clearly. Some of the others in my CCA had to dress up in those mouldy costumes and act for the sec 1s.. hahha. So funny. I was SERIOUSLY relieved I wasn't on duty. Somehow, I've always managed to escape these sorta things... Council was pretty stressful I suppose, we were always getting booked for one event or another... so I guess I wasn' t that active in my CCA other than the debating competitions and training sessions.

YUPS! But I have a feeling things might change once school starts. They actually have activities that we can join.... was thinking that maybe my class should start up our own little group. Hahaha... well, I guess we have to see how it goes! =)

On a literary note, I just realised that all of Jodi Picoult books have one similar ingrediant, and that is she likes to place her characters in a situation that pulls them in two very different directions. But the thing is, she likes to spice it up but blurring the line between right and wrong. Where even the most immoral decision can turn out to be very moral indeed... I particularly enjoyed "keeping faith" and "sister's keeper". Those two were great reads... unique in an interesting way. For my religious friends who aren't too deep in theology but enjoy philosiphical questions, "keeping faith" is highly recomended.

Hmmms... will be going out tomorrow! Something to look forward to! OOOHHH btw, AMI is finally going to END by tomorrow(well not exactly tomorrow)!! Hahaha.... My guess is Hicks is most likely going to win. Firstly, I think Chris' fans are still probably pissed at Kat. Secondly, Hicks has got this whole soul patrol thing from time immemorial. Thirdly, Kat does not have that small town loyalty/support that Hicks has. And to make things seem even worse, Kat and the bloody guest stars don't seem to know how to use Kat's voice to her advantage. Simon was spot on with her choosing over the rainbow which I applaud. If by SOME miracle she picks her songs right tomorrow, she'd have an edge over Hicks.

I support Kat though. I like her voice though I wish she'd listen to bloody Paula and Simon about song choice and her voice range. A good singer should always know his her strength. And I'm kind of getting sick of Hicks already. I mean his antics are interesting, but REALLY?! All the way?? Hmmm.. I dunoo man. I'm rooting for Kat though, even though I expect her loss. Didya know that I've somehow got a knack for picking losers?? Ever since season 2 I've been supporting the loser. Clay, Diana... hmmm but for last season I dunoo... didn't really like either of them that much. I thought Carrie got sickening after a while.

Hmmss... what will happen tomorrow? 11:13 PM




Sooo.... how did it go? Well, I suppose it went as I suspected - to a large extent. Although I was VERY pleasantly surprised with the number of sms wishes I got!! Lol. And from some of the most unexpected people too!! =)

*shouts in microphone* And the prize of the most surprising well-wisher GOES TO... Darylyn !!!!

YES! I was REALLY surprised when I got an sms from her wishing me well. LOl... although I must admit I was highly suspicious... Did someone tell her in school?? hahahha.. ok ok, it doesn't really matter how she found out I guess, but thanks anyway darling! It was very much appreciated!

DID NOT receive well wishes from certain people whom I thought were pretty close... but that's ok I suppose I don't exactly blame them. Lol. I have the tendancy to forget my close friends bdays too! hahah... But to be honest I wonder (refer to previous blogging to find out what I'm curious about) ...

So anyway, like any good entry (and also coz I'm bloody bored), I shall write a day-a-logue to account for my 19th May, 17th Birthday:

19th May Morning (I was doing an all-nighter so I just take it as 6am):
Was drawing furiously and getting so frustrated in the process - I almost tore the hair from my scalp- as I wanted to give my mummy a nice portrait of her three little piggies..er children for a mother's day gift. (my mum was sick the previous week so we settled on celebrating the occasion together on my actual birthday.

Morning 7am:
Decided to prevent myself from becoming bald. Went to take a bath.

Morning 7.30am:
Called Daddy who was at the office and asked if he wanted to get breakfast together. He then came by and we went to market for makan.

Morning 9am:
After munches, dead tired. So went to ZZZzzzzzs.

Afternoon 1pm:
Was awoken from slumber but was still in hibernating mode. Shooed away waker-uper and went back to lala land.

Afternoon 4pm:
Woke up again and suddenly realised it was so bloody late. Immediately went back to frustrating-hair pulling, portrait drawing.

Evening 6.20pm:
Call from Papa bear, "We got to go already! Late already hurry up!" thankfully by this time card/portrait is done. Went to frantically change into new clothes!

Evening 6.40pm:
Am changed, and dolled up and all ready to GO! We then went to.. MARINA MANDARIN!

Night 7.10pm:
Got sms from brother... "WHERE ARE YOU??" and to my dismay I found that we were stuck in the stupid night time jam.

Night 7.28pm:
FINALLY reach the building and park. Only to realise... HOW DO WE GET TO THE HOTEL FROM THE BLOODY SHOPPING CENTRE??!! With God's grace we eventually found signs pointing in the right direction....

Night 7.32
WE REACH! And The buffet spread was MOUTH-WATERING!!!!Ok... this one must talk alot about.

There was the seafood appetisers - VERY fresh seafood, scallops, clams, oysters, crayfish and of course prawns, there was salads, breads (more than usual) with a wide assortment of cheeses (blue cheese, parmesan and other french weird ones I couldn't remember), there was the actual main course which served stuff from barbequed beef slices, pork chop, lamb, prawns in yoghurt, vegetable dahl, stirfried beef slices with onions and peppers, stirfried veggies, fried rice, briyani, eggplant, duck, chicken, the WORKS! They even had a sushi section with sashimi, fresh sushi rolls and COLD SOBA... not forgetting of course tempura prawns, squids and the miso soup that goes with it.

AND DESERTS!!!! This one deserves one WHOLE paragraph! OMG! Firstly, the had sO many different cakes there. Then they had those little deserts in small glasses that look like vodka shot glasses. Anyway, there were wine jelly(jelly bits swimming in a shot glass of wine), mango mouse (which was MELT IN YOU MOUTH), chocolate mouse with egg-white foam (so rich you could die!), strawberry sponge with cream. And aside from thoe glasses, there was actual ICE CREAM! which is always good. And where there is ice cream.. there should ALWAYS BE Apple STRUDDEL!!! OMG I had not had that in AGES! Ohh.. that was mmm.... orgasmic! Lol! And they EVEN had a fondue STATION! WITH STRAWBERRIESSSSS!!!!!!YES!!!!

But sadly, I was so full by that that even though I ate it I was not able to savour the true taste of that creamy, rich chocolate with the sweet, yet slightly sour strawberries..... awwww....best sex ever! LOL... not that I've ever had sex. But I think food this good is way better than sex any time man.

Hahahha... Anyways, I shall end my day-a-logue here coz I'm tired.... Hmmms....

O ya... I guess I should note that this is the first time in my life I did not receive any presents from anybody on my birthday! Lol. but that's okie... coz your well wishes are sweet enough! Plus! I know how feeling so broke is like, so no WORRIES!=)

THANK YOU MUCHES for those who gave me some love on my day! Love you!!! 11:50 PM




A SPECIAL birthday greeting to SARALA for today's her BIRTHDAY!!!!!! WHOOOOHOOOO!!!!


Happy birthday to you,
May you get some hunks, two?
And geeett a PAY RISE!
Happy birthday to yOU!!!!!!!!


Lol.


Two more days till THE day! No big deal really... Other than going out with my parents on Friday, I don't really expect anything from anyone else... =) I'm not particularly popular or well liked.. (I hear I'm still feared in SJC... go figure!) But I'm not too bothered by that really. At least I'll know who my true friends are that way.


I mean if you think about it... someone else might have a ton of friends and a ka-bazillion presents, but I truly wonder how many of those ARE heartfelt gifts of appreciation, friendship and love. It's strange I think... Birthdays I mean.


There's this certain sense of obligation that you get in your gut... not for REALLY CLOSE friends of course, those you ALWAYS remember and are ALWAYS willing to go the extra mile in procuring a present, but for those friends that are supposed to be your good friends...but somehow just end up not as close as people think you are... there's always this sense of obligation. This feeling of "people expect me to give her/him something" therefore it'd look really bad if I didn't... or maybe the more common feeling would be, "she/he's expecting something from me coz last year I gave her something" therefore she/he would feel really disappointed if I didn't give anything to her/him this year, especially if she/he has gotten me another present this year...


Don't you think so? Haven't you ever felt this way?? I do... I ADMIT! I'm one of those idiots who's always concerned of people's opinion of me. And then there's just this FEAR that I might actually disappoint someone.. or WORSE! Create an awkward situation where I don't know if there's a way to get out of!! ARGH! A total vicious cycle if you think about it. I mean I get stuck giving gifts to a person just so I can avoid this whole drama of apologies, and BECAUSE I've already given this person a gift it means that the following year should also be of no exception!


I think it has to do with my inferiority complex. =) No... it's not a joke. I really DO have an inferiority complex. People assume that just because I have this confidence around people that it automatically means I'm a very self assured person. But that's not it!! I always feel inferior to people. And let me tell you honey, it ain't healthy. NOPE! Certainly not. Grrr...


Anyways, I certainly don't wish for ANYONE to go through the same pains as me. So PLEASE. If you don't have money/ don't have any well wishings for me/ don't like me/ don't even KNOW me, PLEASE don't bother with either wishing or giving me presents. There's no point. I REALLY won't hold it against you. After all, my birthday is just the day I was born... nothing special. We can always celebrate at CHRISTMAS! lol. Christ's "birthday" more important! =)


But then again, I suppose there's this certain amount of JOY you get out of the fact people actually REMEMBER to wish you happy birthday. And I suppose, no matter how superficial it is, it always feels GREAT just thinking that so many people are actually thinking of you! The worst kinds of wishes I think, are those where they wish you the very exact moment you tell them it's you're birthday. You know the kind! Lol. Anyways....


Is happiness tangible? I wonder.... 2:46 PM





1:37 AM




Oh My googlely-gracious me! Has it been MONTHS since my last update? Oh wells. Couldn't really help it. What with the work at office at the start of the year and then the inevitable crash of the internet. (was I a wicked computer hacker in my past life or something?? My karma with comps is just bloody shite!!!)

Anyways, I'm back and BIGGER than EVER!!! With all that bosomy goodness flavour! Now, just so you know ladies, there's a safer and 1 year no payment plan way to enlarge your breasts! All you need to do really, is go get yourself pregnant! YUP! Big bouncy kajugs will be heading your way within months! Hmm... but then again I suppose the after sagging effect is quite the undersired huh. Hmmm.. plus all that bulk around the waist too... Oh wells! You can't get EVERYTHING in life can you! =)

Well well, on to more serious matters.

My uncle just collapsed today with hernia. Can you believe it?!! Just 5 Freekin days before his son's Confirmation! You know, if I didn't know better and if I were my uncle, I'd be really pissed with my jesus at the mo. But since I know better ( I REALLY DO!) I'd be more optimistic about it and not get angry at God and blame it all on satan. ( SATAN must get a LOT of flaming from us humans huh. What with us cursing all the time? hmmm...)

Anyway, don't get me wrong, even with my blesphemic nature and making light of everything, I still love God and AM worried about my uncle. He's been told that he needs an emergency operation, so I'll be praying real hard for him. If any of you guys reading this are religious. Do spare a moment in your day to ask for your God's blessing for my uncle. And Thanks in advance.

Since I haven't been updating lately, I'll just write up about some stuff that happened to me lately.

I went to Divine Mercy at St. Mary of The Angels and boy was it CROWDED! Mmm.. it was a real spiritual booster in my opinion.. This time round saying the prayer, I found myself bombarded with images and emotions of love, sadness, regret and forgiveness. It was a really different experience for me. Before, saying the divine mercy prayer was emotional no doubt, but this time the emotions were deeper, more pronounced and more.. well more! Everything was just more intense.

You know, even with the discovery of the book of Judas and all the conspiracy theories flying here and there (which even I find interesting and hard to doubt) I cannot deny that there isn't a God. I cannot deny that a higher being, greater than man lives among us and I certainly cannot deny the experiences and events that have touched me greatly...

For those of you who haven't heard, my interview with NAFA was a success, I made it to the small group of 20 and will be receiving my first 'allowance' in June. It's exciting, it's exhilarating, but most of all, it's nerve wrecking. The people around me are no longer the normal amateurs you see in secondary school. Some are even graduates of other art course and have had years of experience (the one and only guy classmate who's 33 yrs old for example has already done teaching before and has certification in his art course)

The fear of failing at this point in time is almost greater than my will to succeed. Which I'm sure you all know is a bad thing. And the uncertainty I feel is only amplified when I think about how lacking my skills are in terms of painting.

Yet, the only remedy to this, I know, is sheer hard work and practise. I will try my best, and hopefully, what potential they saw in me during the interviews will be realised after my years of study.

In case you guys also didn't know, I'm also planning to sit for my A level's. I don't think I'll be able to handle a full 7 subj combi (what with my NAFA studies and NIE training) but I'm definitely planning on trying for my GP and Lit. (hopefully) which means I will need YOUR HELP! Hahaha.. for those of you studying Lit... HELP! Lol... I'm serious....

Of course whether or not I'll be able to sit for the exam is another matter. Obviously since I have a scholarship with NIE/NAFA, I'm not permitted to do any moonlighting and the such, which includes outside courses. I'll probably have to write in to MOE and ask for permission or something of the like.... GRRRrrr

Anyways, other than that, my life has been rather uneventful....but I suppose the onslaught of celebrations coming up will keep me amused. There's mother's day, vesak day (my chinese bday) and then there's my actual birthday (19th may for those who've forgotten) and one of my best buddies, Joan whose bday is 1 week before mine! Ohhh not forgetting my Godbrother's bday too! lol. Soo soo... =) I shall get you a Playboy t-shirt!!! (either that or I'm not getting you anything! HMPH!) And yes! You too little boy! I didn't forget you either! You shall be receiving something from me soon... hehehhee (ominous right? RIGHt?!!)

Ps. To all those in LOG. If I've forgotten to wish you happy bday, especially close buddies like denise and Jes and all, I'm SORRY!!! Gomen! Dui bu qi!! Mamaafkan! 8:03 PM

Name: Teri Tan
Birthday: 19th May 1989
Occupation: Student (NAFA/NIE)
Schooled at: OLGC, SJC

Interests: Literature :), Music, Art

1) Win a competition

2) Make a good portfolio

3) To graduate well enough to get a scholarship for an overseas degree and maybe take a second major like literature or philosophy

4) Earn enough money so I'm not reliant on my brothers in the future





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